thursday may 28
arrival at the sofitel hotel in miami
-meeting the tredways in the swank lounge
-mama interrogating the tredways
-meeting the rest of the delegation in my room
-meeting my roomies, latifah and taylor. liking them both at the time
-meeting in the exec business room
-discussing official business, itinerary, what we were going to do/see
-dinner and practice debates.
-team BELK -- erik and latifa.
-didnt like erik, he wanted us to completely parrot his opinions.
-getting ready for bed with roomies
-discussing religion with latifa

Friday May 29th
-brunch with french ambassador
-questioning period
-boring, wanted it to be over
-downtime... explored hotel a bit
-lunch at the cafe...swank  :)
-3 pm... flight. 10 hours of my life. spent getting annoyed with kim.
-arrival in paris at CDG, bus ride to livry-gargan. the cutest suburb 
-lunch at the high school, lycee andre boulloche... weird food... met the paris kids and host families
-ate with the popular princesses, jennifer, cecile, monica. they seemed nice but idk. theres always something.
-went home with mama henon and diane. took a shower and took subway into paris with paris kids.

Saturday May 30
-VERSAILLES
-theres a city outside the palace, taylor, kim, kath, and i are the only ones who bothered to explore it

Sunday May 31
-Sacrecoeur, montmartre
-arc de triomphe
-the musee dorsay is closed on sundays, evidemment
-the notre dame.

Monday June 1

Tuesday June 2
-USA YOUTH DEBATES =]]]]
-benjamin layani
-our amazing park picnic... LOVE

Wednesday June 3
-bisous and au revoirs to paris loves
-off to lycee francois premier for debates
-meeting claire
-eating ratatouille <3<3<3
-MY AMAZING HOUSE :D
-dance show love

Thursday June 4
-holocaust talk
-noisy le sec. proof that ghetto people exist even in france
-touring the chateau in fontainebleau... oh boring.
-some sort of... banquet on our behalf?

Friday June 5
bus ride to caen. arrival. meeting mommy.
crepes at mommy's cousins, beach at caen. amazing.

Saturday June 6
OBAMA!!! O DEAR GOD.

Sunday June 7
mont st. michel
san malo, crepes for 2 euro?!

Monday June 8
shopping in caen... rainy rainy...stay at the holiday inn express
-confession!!! pissing off the christians
-our insane hotel dance party, complete with the rude entrance of john tredway

Tuesday June 9
plane ride quality time with taonga, kim, and princess patel
early flight...arrival late afternoon
 

love in the dark
two souls with no foresight
we forget who are
in transition from dark to night

how can we describe our love now
like a collision in a downtown

i wish we could be like we were
cuz i'm so sure i was happy
so sure i was happy then.
but we have come down so low
at least i knew you loved me
at least i knew you loved me then.

and how the seasons have changed,
as time pressures what we are
our love is just not the seem
the real thing seems so far

we're stuck in the in between
we can't stay and we can't leave

i wish we could be like we were
cuz i'm so sure i was happy
so sure i was happy then.
we've come down so low
do you know how come
where did we get our joy from
at least i knew we had it then.

i'm unsure
that the glue and the paperclips
do this time
we are forward
and backward
but never at the same time
not in sync and i miss
being with you and it being enough
and its rough
to be tested and tested again
at least i knew you loved me then.

his father was a drinker
and his mother cried in bed
folding john wayne's t-shirt
when a swing set hit his head
his neighbors, they adored him
for his humour and his conversation
look underneath the house there
find the few living things
rotting fast, in their sleep of the dead
twenty-seven people, even more
they were boys.
with their cars, summer jobs,
oh my god.

"john wayne gacy jr." sufjan fucking genius stevens.

and. The Awakening by Kate Chopin.

"I love you," she whispered, " only you, no one but you. It was you who awoke me last summer out of a life-long, stupid dream. Oh! you have made me so unhappy with your indifference. Oh! I have suffered, suffered. Now you are here we shall love each other, my Robert. We shall be everything to each other. Nothing else in the world is of any consequence..." pg.179

"Despondency had come upon her there in the wakeful night, and had never lifted. There was no one thing in the world that she desired. There was no human being whom she wanted near her except Robert; and she even realized that the day would come when he, too, and the thought of him would melt out of her existence, leaving her alone....The water of the Gulf stretched out before her, gleaming with the million lights of the sun. The voice of the sea is seductive, never ceasing, whispering, clamouring, ,murmuring, inviting the soul to wander in abysses of solitude." pgs. 188-189

just things that make me kinda happy.